It was a tough first week back and you took it in your stride.
I however failed miserably.
You see, no one told me how hard this part of parenthood would be.
Babies with sleepless nights. Toddlers with their frustrations. Up to Seven year olds when the chat back begins, but no body told me the tween life would be a struggle.
A new level of exhaustion for us both. You are worrying so much about which school you should move to and feeling so nervous already about exams to get into high school and I am up late worrying about why you need to even think about these things at Ten.
TEN.
Let that sink in for a minute.
We are not in high school planning a college for your career path. You are Ten and we are trying to pick a school that will love you for you and embrace all your amazing qualities. We also want you to enjoy your last year of primary school yet you seem more anxious then ever before. A little worrier. I don’t know where you get it from.
You spent nights crying over not getting into a squad this week. Then more nights crying over not being chosen for house captains. Yet you went to school each day with a brave face and acted as if you were fine.
I don’t know does that make me more upset that you felt the need to hide your sadness or happy that you were able to stand proud at a time that was hard for you.
Remember to be yourself always.
Be yourself in the way that you dress.
Be yourself in the music you choose to listen to.
Be yourself around your friends and also those who don’t know you yet.
Be yourself in all the ideas that you have dreamed up and planned for yourself.
Just be yourself.
We need to remember that kids shouldn’t be compared.
There is no comparison between the sun and the moon. They shine when it’s their time!
Next week is a new week.
A week that will be full of new exciting moments.
Try to do one thing that makes you feel brave this week. I don’t know where it will take you but I do know that you have an incredible purpose for your life and this brave step is going to put you on that path!
Brave. Baby. Steps.
Love, Mammy x
